It's Like that Annoying Alanis Morrissette Song

When I first started this blog, my goal was to define the Other Woman's side of things, give insight into why men may cheat on their significant others. I said it in the very first post that I would swoop on men who are not getting what they want or need from their women. And here I am, sitting here, in a relationship and my boyfriend and I haven't had sex since before Thanksgiving. It's January 9th.

It's all me. I haven't wanted sex. I haven't been horny, mentally or physically. I don't want to give blowjobs. I've tried "taking one for the team" but it's hard to be fucked when you're dry as a bone. I'm one of those women who isn't taking care of her man's needs and I have no idea what is wrong with me. I'm weepy, my self-esteem is shot, and I feel like the worst girlfriend ever. He's frustrated. Conversations about sex are tense, and I cry a lot. I don't know how to fix it.

I feel broken.

Happy New Year

This will most likely be my last entry of the year unless I come up with something good in the next couple of days. I tried to have sex a couple of weeks ago. First time I've been horny in ages (I have a doctor's appointment in January) and I dried up at penetration. So frustrating! Then last night Foot Fetish Boyfriend had to settle for a blowjob because I just haven't been horny. At all. Not even mentally horny. Some sex blogger I am, eh?

Anyway, we'll see what the New Year's celebration brings. I bought enough liquor tonight to make my liver fall out and damn it all, I am going to get fucking trashed. And maybe laid. And most likely puke at some point. But it's a party! Woo!

Hey, any readers from New York City? I'll be visiting in March for my birthday and I want to know some good clubs with house music, or, even better, dubstep. Love and kisses forever for some recommendations! Just leave 'em in the comments!

Do good works

I wanted to post something in the spirit of the season, which should be, in all reality, the spirit of every day, but it's not, for most people. I know for me it usually isn't. What I'm getting at is be good to each other. Life is too short. Holidays are especially difficult, whether it be due to loneliness and depression, loss, poverty, whatever.

I am unemployed. I am receiving food stamps and just this week got approved for my unemployment benefits. Things got very hairy for me for a while. But I'll be okay. However, when good friends said that they were going to have to pawn personal possessions, and play "which bill doesn't get paid" in order to give their kids a Christmas, I couldn't stand idly by. Unbeknownst to anyone, I went to the grocery store before arriving at their house for one of our get togethers and bought them $80 worth of groceries and offered the use of my credit card to pay their bills (with payback later) so that they could buy gifts.

I also dropped a bag of food off at a local business that was collecting for a couple of local families because I found out via one of the owners that they had had barely any donations. For all the people that are in and out of the shop daily, no one could bring in a can of food. I would have brought more, if I could have brought frozen food. I took from my pantry, and I am not wanting for it. There are people a lot more worse off than me.

So, not to sound preachy, because there is no religious or ulterior motive behind this, just do good by your fellow man. It actually feels kind of good. It's something I'm going to bring up to my therapist today, because while I was helping my friends, and buying extra presents for my loved ones, donating food to the less fortunate, I didn't have time to be depressed. It's not enough to make me run out and volunteer because let's face it, I'm lazy, but if I can do these small things and feel good, maybe others can too.

Do good things, people!

Oh! The Scandal!

Wikipedia has a huge list, in chronological order of political sex scandals in the U.S. should you care to look them up. They go back quite far. I've been thinking about sex and politics lately, since the politicians are putting in their bids and trying to be their party's favorite for the running toward the presidency. I'll try to keep actual politics out of it because I don't enjoy talking about politics in general, but damn, that Buchanan woman is a fucking peach now, isn't she? Hiss.

The first time I ever really took notice of political sex scandal was back in 1998 (jesus... graduating high school and entering college. Now I feel old) with Bill Clinton. Now, his taste in women was questionable, but if he liked that little pork sausage, to each his own. But that was the first time I was like "this is just dumb." And it was. Did getting some in the Oval Office affect how he ran things? No. Not in the least. At least, not from what I could see, and in my newly-18-and-I-can-vote scrutiny, he was actually doing a good job of things.

I'm gong to say something, and it may shock some of you, so you may want to sit first:

People have sex. Even politicians.

Gasp! I know! And they have unhappy marriages and affairs, just like real people! Who'd'a thunk it? Listen, I know it makes good press, and it's awesome if you're actively trying to roust someone from their seat to take over and you come across this dirt on them to expose for your own gain, but honestly? It's none of our business, and a little gross to publicly shame them for getting their dicks wet. I imagine being a politician is stressful so if you gotta get off, to relax and get the tension out, so be it.

Politicians: they're people too.

Rambling

Sometimes you hit a dry spell. I'm in one. My libido has tanked and so has motivation to  do much. I told my therapist about this blog today and I realized I write in it a lot more often when I'm manic. I'm baseline now, not depressed, but I haven't been struck with inspiration. I still check my stats every day and I appreciate the hits I get. But everyone gets a dry spell and I've run into one. Tonight I think I'll just listen to beautiful music and center myself. Does anyone have any topics they'd like me to write about?

I'll just leave these here.

Wow...

So this isn't much of an entry but... I'm watching some Animal Planet show about weird animal mating rituals and slug mating is... Amazingly elegant. Look it up. Wow. Also, bonobos fuck a lot. No wonder we're so closely related to the Great Apes.

Prostitution should be legal

A good friend and I were taking about jail and how celebrities are released due to over crowding because we frankly have the wrong "criminals" in there. What do I mean by the wrong criminals, you ask? Let's talk drugs, for a moment. Now, I am one of the most anti-drug people you'll ever meet, but jailing a small-time user or dealer of marijuana is ridiculous and a waste of time and money. Fine them and be on their way. Now white-collar crimes like tax evasion. Not only are the taxes not getting paid, but it actually costs taxpayers money to have tax evaders in jail. Way to go, the legal system.

So what does this all have to do with prostitution? A number of things. Since I'm composing this on my phone (anyone wanna donate a Samsung Galaxy Tab? *wink*) and it's becoming cumbersome, I present to you the numbered list. Besides, people feel tl;dr with paragraphs sometimes.

1. Legalization would allow for federal regulation, meaning taxation (because really, it's only illegal because the government isn't getting their cut) and access to healthcare programs.

2. Also, legalization would decriminalize the sex worker industry, freeing up space in the jails for rehabilitation of real criminals and would help our government save on wasteful spending.

3. No more pimps! No more girls or boys abused, held hostage, raped and kept strung out and controlled by the god-damned pimps. Prostitutes in a legalized sex industry would have a safer work environment due to the lack of pimps.

4. Regulation... I touched on this briefly. One thing that there is no control over now that legalization could enforce is something that is done in the porn industry: mandatory STD and AIDS testing every 3-6 months as well as immunizations for hepatitis.

5. Oh, and let's put an end to human trafficking, shall we? Of course, legalizing prostitution doesn't put an end to the exploitation of the impoverished and desperate denizens of third world countries, but it will help.

Thoughts? Opinions? I know people read this, and I'd love to get some discussion going!