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I have a food and cooking blog if any of you care to know about my non-sexual hobbies.

The Smart Gourmand

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Sometimes you have to get away

I haven't really disclosed much but Foot Fetish Friend and I broke up a month ago. It was a mutual decision because right now with my mental illness, a relationship wasn't working. I didn't deal well with the breakup and turned in to the Psycho Ex no guy wants. I had the opportunity to go to Florida for 10 days and I took it. Being in another state, being away from everyone and everything gave me time to think, to have clarity. One of the big decisions I had made before I even left was to tell Number 1  that there would be no sexual relationship, that I wouldn't fall back on old habits of becoming the single slut. But in Florida, listening to the birds and smelling the orange blossoms on the breeze, I realized that my priorities were with Foot Fetish Friend, that I missed him terribly and that all the experiences  I was having, I wanted him to have too.

Since I've been back we've had our rocky spots, but we've been sneaking off to make out and last night tried to find a place in the dark outside of our friend's apartment building to fuck. Alas, despite the nice weather, there's still quite a bit of ice on the ground. Oh well. :)