You Make Me Want to be A Better Domme

Until recently, I identified as a switch with mild Domme tendencies. Over the last few months, I've realized I need to reclaim myself and embrace my Domme side. About a month ago, I met Dog. Dog, who approached me as a paypig, who was willing to learn and grow with me.

In this past month or so, my precious Dog has helped me discover things about myself, and explore those things. I really like dominating a man. I love humiliating him, degrading him, knowing it turns him on when I rub my feet on his face or roleplay a super humiliating scene. I love that I can meet his needs, but also meet my own needs. I never thought humiliating and degrading someone would be as much of a turn on as it is, but it is.

It's a thrill when I give an order and it's carried out. When I say "I want money, come over with your wallet" or "I'm hungry and placed an order. Go pay for it and deliver it to my house." Opening my email to find a giftcard waiting for my pleasure.

It had been about 6 years since I was last in a D/S relationship, and I was the sub then. But I'm understanding my Dom's side now. I'm understanding that part of me, and it's liberating, especially being in a time in my life where I find it harder and harder to switch and submit to anyone.

Thank you, Dog. You make me want to find new and more clever ways to humiliate you, take care of you, and meet your needs. Your Goddess is very lucky to have such a good boy like you to worship her.

Hypocrite, or "How to Look Guilty"

I mentioned a couple weeks ago I may have a fourth to add to my collective, but that I wasn't holding out hope because he's flaked on me in the past. He did end up flaking on me again and I haven't heard from him since. He and I are Facebook friends and former coworkers. He's engaged. Now, as I've mentioned before, taken or not, I'm discreet. I'm not the morality police, so if you want to cheat on your partner, I won't tell, but I won't lie for you, either. But honestly, one of the things that makes me laugh with derision and also paints a huge "I'm guilty" red flag are the constant postings on his Facebook of memes about loyalty and love, and how strong his relationship is, etc., etc..

If your relationship is so strong, then why do you want to cheat on your fiancee with me? Also, when he posted this image, I think I laughed out loud:

For real, if I was your woman, I would be so suspicious as to why you were posting that. Every time he's talked to me, the next day his Facebook is full of that shit. Dude, you look guilty as hell. You might as well let her log into your account and read our conversations, for real. 

Pillow Humping

Last night, #3 (Sanjay) and I  got together at a hotel for a booty call. I wasn't really feeling it though. Maybe trying to feel sexy after a night of drinking isn't a thing for me. Haha. Tonight was different.I found a Tumblr page dedicated to women humping things. I was already somewhat horny, and watching gifs and videos of girls humping pillows, stuffed animals, furniture... made it worse.

I gathered up a nearly-dead pillow, a firmer, cylindrical pillow, and a towel, and started. It felt great. But I wondered what it would feel like with penetration. I've only been on top with partners a couple  times. I always felt awkward. So tonight I put the glass boyfriend in me and went to town on the pillows.

Holy. Hell.

It felt so goddamn amazing, and at one point I reached around to hold the dildo in place so I could actually feel it going in an out as I rode. I came quick. It was an amazing orgasm. Such a shame I had to be quiet. After, I rolled over, put the towel under me, and gave myself another messy orgasm.

My cunt's feeling really good right now. :)